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Day 3: Being Sick

Well yesterday was definitely a better day, I woke up feeling semi okay so I decided to clean up my room a little, and by a little I mean I cleaned the living creatures out of this room. I cleaned it so thoroughly and left nothing but shinning spots. So after I cleaned up my room I decided to clean up myself so I went upstairs took a shower and shaved. My step-dad’s daughters were okay yesterday, not to much of a bother; It seems like they might be growing up. The oldest is Jenny (Almost 18), then there’s Daisy (15 on Aug 18) and finally there’s.. Wow I forgot her name, ha-ha, but she’s 13. So Anyways, I cleaned up and a few family members came over, my cousin Nestor (Veteran USMC 11X, 2 Iraq tours, 1 Afghan tour) came over and we had a few beers. Had a real good time at home drinkin’ with the rents and the fam, but I remembered that it was my buddy Trevor’s(Future U.S. Army 11X) last weekend, So I called him up and he dropped by and picked me up with another buddy Ryan and Trevor’s lady friend, Sadrine. As soon as they showed up my girlfriend Chelsea showed up, which was a real disappointment because it was the first time I had seen her in a couple days and I really wanted to spend time with her, So I said my goodbyes to her and she took off. I walked over and hopped in shotgun. Got to my buddy Josh’s place and started partying. Ended up only 1-1 in beerpong that night but it was a good night. I forgot to take my pills so my breathing felt a little weird. So slammed off the top, my buddy decided to lend me his car so I could drive home and pick up my pills, so I did. I drove him, but his conditions were that I get him Del Taco chicken soft taco’s, so I thought no problem. Except my drunk ass didn’t know where he placed the money so I had no money to buy him taco’s, oh yeah, I had a 10$ bill in my pocket before I took off from Josh’s to my house. Anyways, so I get back and everyone is passed out, except for Owen, apparently he had been running up the street and down hills.. it was random? ha-ha, So I go up stairs and get ready to pass out and I hear massive and i mean MASSIVE moaning coming from a bedroom, it looked like the night ended up well for my buddy Trevor and his lady friend Sandrine.

So overall, the night was great and I hope the best for Trevor and his military career. Especially since he’s under me and I get 2g’s from him in total when he’s done with boot camp. Can’t wait to see you in GA buddy, we’ll see eachother in September!

Day 2: Being Sick

So I woke up fairly late today around 1301 with a massive headache, just to know that I’d be sitting at home all day and not being able to head out on a Friday night really put a slump on my evening, then not only realizing a couple minutes later that I couldn’t see out of my right eye also put a drift into my mood. I didn’t know what to do for a while. I tried looking at it and it was disgusting. I tried washing it out and kind of just putting eye drops on it but nothing seemed to help. A couple hours later my mother showed up with what had been my medication eye drops and a couple other pills for my chest so I was real happy about that. She was also nice enough to make me some nice chicken broth for easy smooth eating while in my bed. So anyways, I took my pills which are Zyrtec (Certizine HCI/Antihistamine 10mg tablets) which relieves my respiratory allergies, 250mg Azithromycin tablets (Which are supposed to help with the bacterial problems in my eye) and Ciprofloxacin Ophthalmic Solution for my eyes. I only have to take the oral tablets once a day which isn’t too bad, but the eye drops, I have to keep busy with on every 2 hours. I have to make sure that I keep even hours one drop every two hours, which is not fun by the way. The doctor had told me on the phone today that I should stay awake today(Because of the severity in my eye) and go through the night putting the drops into my eyes. Anyways, after I took the pills I thought I’d have a little cookies and cream dots icescream and lay down try to nap, which I really wasn’t able to do to my step father coming home with three of the most ignorant, annoying, brat prissy girls you have ever met, his daughters. I’m trying to play a little Counter-Strike and all I hear is their bullcrap coming from their mouths.

Anyways, to top this off, not being able to go out on this gorgeous Friday night is just a bummer. Hopefully I’ll be better by tomorrow and will be able to go to Amber’s keger. Oh, and almost forgot, My buddy Trevor (E2 Infantry) leaves this Tuesday for bootcamp @ FT. Benning, GA. Wish him luck as he departs on a 5year journey of government issued trips.

As for tonight, this is it for me, I’ll keep you all posted on how I’m doing.

If there’s anything I missed or you’d like to hear about, let me know, I’ll post it right up here.

A Day in the ER

So I just woke up about hm I’m gonna say 4 hours ago, let’s say 0130. I realized I couldn’t breathe and my right eye is so swollen I can barely see out of it. So I decide that I’m alright and I’ll just get up and get a glass a milk… boy was I wrong.

After sitting down and drinking my glass of milk, the top of my nose (nasal cavity) feels like it has so much pressure that it will blow up soon. I got a big headache, I’m having trouble breathing and my eye is swollen shut almost.. For no apparent reason none the less. So I decide to take a trip to the emergency room and when I get there I realize my voice is also gone, so the lady is looking at me like I’m retarded while she’s asking my name, so I just write it down for her, let her know my ordeal and bam, I have my apron shirt thing on and I’ve got myself a bed. The doctor comes by and let’s me know I’ve got pink eye and probably nasal congestion so he has some nurse come in and give me an IV and promptly after that another nurse comes in and is ready to take my X-Rays.

I get my X-Rays of my chest done and the breathing is still continuously stressing so they have this lady come in and hand me some machine. She checks my temperature first by putting the thermostat under my tongue and clears me to go. I start sucking on this thing that should apparently clear my sinuses and make my breathing easier, little does she know it would not help, after she took the machine out of my mouth I’m wheezing.. I’ve never had any asthmatic problems or anything of that sort so I wasn’t too worried. The lady looked so annoyed with me that she just took the machine and left, just to later come back and give me a sinus clearing antibiotic into my IV and then a painkiller for my headache. Her not knowing a had to drive back here, she gave me a drowsy pill. So I’m driving home I get on the freeway and realize, “wow, I’m super tired..”, I start drifting into my right lane and almost slam a car, so I recuperate real quick and get my butt home.

Now I’m sitting here writting about it almost passed out and it is 1154.

Overall, hospitals really suck and are time consuming. Don’t use them.

Life’s Getting Harder

So this weekend ended up decently well. I picked up a friend that is in the USMC from Palm Springs Airport on Saturday around 3pm and we came down to party that Saturday night. Ended up good, we played beer pong and flip cup at my place and got super trashed. Sunday got to drive back to Palm Springs around 330pm and I didn’t get back home till around 7, during that time I think I just played a little Counter-Strike and then decided to go over to my girlfriends house, which didn’t end up that well because she was tired and hurting from her time of the month so I thought i’d be better if she just got some rest and I would see her tomorrow.

During the night something ended up happening and her mother had to be rushed to the E.R. – Thankfully she is okay but she will be confined in a facility for the next couple days.

“Things turn out best for those who make the best of the way things turn out.” -Jack Buck

Here’s a poem; Forever Gone

Her face is puffy and red, while painful tears stream down her sad face.
She cries out loudly, hoping someone will hear her silent screams.
So many voices going through her head,
telling her how better she would feel if she were dead.
She places her shaking hands over her ears, trying not to listen.
She yells out once again for help, yet no one comes to her rescue.
She then remains sitting there on her cold bathroom floor, while the clock ticks by.
Her body begins to shake uncontrollably, unable to stop it all.
Starting to realize that no one cares, feeling so alone and helpless.
She finally comes to the decision that there is only one thing left to do.
She brings her shaking hands together, closes her eyes and prays.
She speaks to god one last time and tells him this:

“Lord, I’m so tired and the pain inside doesn’t want to go away.
I can no longer shed anymore tears, for my eyes hurt me really bad.
The voices in my head don’t want to go away.
My heart aches so bad that it’s become too unbearable for me.
No one loves me, no one cares, no one wants me, and no one can help me now.
I tried being the good girl everyone wanted, but it wasn’t good enough.
All I wanted was for someone to love me God.
Was I asking too much?
I’m so sorry God but I have to end my suffering the only way I know how.
Please forgive me God for what I’m about to do.”

She opens her eyes for the last time, and quickly grabs for the razor blade.
She forces the sharp blade against her wrist.
She starts slitting her veins, deeper and deeper into her flesh.
The dark blood pours out more and more onto the floor all over.
Feeling weaker and weaker, becoming more and more unconscious by the seconds,
the blade drops from her hand onto that cold floor, her final resting place.
Her cold body now collapses to the floor and she slowly begins to feel the pain fade away along with her soul, finally falling into an endless sleep.
She lays there dead, yet free of pain.
It is now quiet, no screams, no tears, no suffering, just utter silence.